Thank God for music

I never expected to be living back in my home town after 20 years of being gone. I had invested for so long in other people I had almost forgotten I had a family, parents. I don't imagine I am very different from other singles my age without children, I know my friends and I are passionate and driven individuals serving our community and world. I though have been convicted over these months, charity begins at home and I finally get that. It's taken my mother having a stroke and now facing a life threatning disease to bring me to that place where you don't care who hurt you in the past or if so-so likes you. You just want to love and be loved. I can't imagine my world withought my mother in it. Yet, since her stroke, the Lord has been telling my heart you can. How do you do that God? How do you ask me to let her go when the well of love I drink from with her is so deep. I catch myself looking at her somtimes just putting the picture of the moment in my mind, to call up one day when she is gone. This wasn't the door I ever expected to walk through, but I am walking through it even though I want to run away sometimes. Infact mother and I plot at least once a week to run away to Texas to sit by the water of her childhood home. She can't travel yet otherwise I would have her on the train tommorow so we hope and plan for fiesta week in San Antonio. My family was overwelmed by latest news of her illness this last week. When she and I left the doctors I held back my tears. She said not to worry miha, and grabbed hold of my hand. I put on Shakira- mother loves her music. We danced on our drive and through the music we forgot about being sad or filled with fear of this new season. I Thank God for music.

(lyrics)
I love you, I love you it's all I want to say-
Will stick together and see it through, you got a friend in me-
That's the kind of love were in...